call the cops i think she's dead

do you think things are meant to be?

"I don't know, in a way it makes you think, oh I don't have to worry, it's all taken care of, it will all work out...but in another way its like, what if your life turns out really lousy, is it supposed to make you feel better that somebody planned that out for you, and there's nothing you can do about it?"

"this is where were supposed to be
sitting by the broken tree
no tragedy no poetry, just staring at the sky"

i still sneak a peak every once in a while at your direction.

Its Saturday, almost the august yet again.Secretly I'm not dreading school;
you kind of just need to make your own fun sometimes.

SEXGOD!

Because pedophile doesn't describe him, neither does hot ass pedophile, of course the words that came to my mind were sexgod... I hate the time of the month. Seriously, God made the female human way to moody and complicated and especially dedicated a time for the month so we can be exponentially moody and complicated, not to mention covered in pimples or whatnot.

Anyways, its that time of year again, school has returned and I haven't had a shift at the bakery in ever. Deep down I'm worried that they have like secretly fired me, which would suck man balls because I thoroughly enjoyed the cash flow. I realize school is less painful this year, ten times more bearable than the previous hell I spent ten months of my life in. Its true that the people you're around affect your happiness, but happiness is a personal decision, that's right outside my window. I can wrap my hot little hands around it and try to hold on to it with my life, but I guess, it's really never that simple. I feel as though I'm finally content with my place. This is where I fit at school, and I have nothing to complain about. It makes me question the reason why I want to switch schools. I feel as though I'm not getting anywhere at this school, and that a new school will change that. Maybe it won't, maybe it will be worse than Carney. Who knows, but in this moment I hold my future. I can make the choice. I can maybe conduct some sort of change. I realize I'm thinking way too much about this, I'll let this year continue and see what happens.

"dont just live life like a routine, because its not"

a little bit of this.

Good morning,

In the past two weeks, my mind has been filled with the tedious rhythmic drones of taking cookies off a tray and placing them in plastic containers. I work for eight dollars and fifty cents an hour so I can maybe spend a couple hundred on makeup and clothes while some of these fellows beside me work so they can eat and pay for rent. Its easy to see education is the easy way out in the long run. I'm doing good in school, and I will forever do good in school because I know what I am capable of, and its more than icing cookies all day. I realize how difficult life is and am on edge about the next few years in the transition to becoming more independent as I near my 'future.' Blanche Mcdonalds tuition is around 15,000 dollars, and I want in. I know cosmetology will not be my sole career path, but for one it is my hobby and passion. I don't know if its worth it though, I mean, I have to spend a lot more time in the bakery if I want to say no to a student loan.
Work means time and things get out of the way, I mean I missed Warped Tour this year. Huge sadgasm, and I feel as though I would have had a really good time if I went. Also at work I've met a lot of new kids. Shit son, really everyone smokes weed now a days. It doesn't bother me in a weird way, but I dislike ciggarettes. I mean everyone at work smells like shit. Quite frankly, its gross. I don't know. Time has been moving pretty fastly slow for me so in the end, I just dgaf.




PS, for that private caller who called me three times at 5 am, sorry for missing your call. I love people who call me at random times in the night because it screws around with my head that someone actually wants to talk to me, even if its some drunk bastard, I mean, you managed to dial my number? Hah, my mind has been an epic fail of a place lately and I think its due to some sleep deprivation and lack of interest in life.

And to conclude another pointless blog entry, I wanna say stop drinking the hatorade and start drinking the bubble tea, because Peter Chao makes my life.

Good night.

movies movies movies.

I spend the majority of my time at the movie theater

and recently, a large amount of seemingly epic movies have been peeking out at me.
I am incredibly stoked for Tim Burton's Alice in Wonderland! March 5, 2010 cannot come
any faster. Also, New Moon looks incredible, I know not to have any great expectations for them
but honestly Taylor Lautner seems sufficient entertainment.

Dakota Fanning looks stunning, really excited to see how she plays out !!

I also am quite pumped to see Jennifer's Body. It was scripted by Diablo Cody, the guy (girl actually) who did Juno. Megan Fox plays the demonic cheerleader that eats boys, and Amanda Seyfried is the lame friend who has to kill the demonic female. Any ways, the film sound really stupid but I am intrigued. The contributing factors are mostly because the soundtrack is going to be epic with Panic's new single, All Time Low, Cobra, and even Dashboard Confessional. As well, I did thoroughly enjoy myself watching Juno, so thus I'm hoping to get a kick out of this one.

cue the sun

PS: I want Tom Felton.

I need Tom Felton.
I would do fucking Tom Felton.
If you haven't looked up his youtube account feltbeats then you are missing out.
From his accent, vocals, guitar playing, and fucking harmonica. He makes out for a delicious
musical orgasm.

mad as a hatter

ALICE IN FUCKING WONDERLAND.



No joke, this film is gonna be epic.